Change
Ah, September, you gorgeous month! You are so generous, offering us another season to embrace change. I adore your changing light, the sound of crickets in the evening, the deepening of sky hues to darker oranges and purples, the surrendering of the garden, plants and trees, and the gentle cooler mornings, offering us hope that we will rebound with the drenching of rain again soon. Even the sunflowers bow in gratitude for the heat of the summer and to honor and welcome the upcoming season of death and change. I love you, September, almost as much as I love October…more on that next month though!
Every year, this time of year, I begin to feel a little more focus, a bit more relief and a lot of grief coming up. You see, fall is the time of year when I experienced significant loss in my life, including the sudden death of my older brother 22 years ago. So, as soon as the weather begins to change, I remember the feeling of shock, grief and surrender in my body. I am grateful to remember because as painful as it was, and still sometimes is, to lose my brother, it also taught me how precious my life is. I know deep appreciation for love and beauty because I have lost and grieved. There have been many other losses in the past 22 years and I am learning, still, to fully feel and then release that energy from my body, to invite and allow a sacred relationship with myself, with others, with nature and with divine cycles.
As the leaves begin to dry up, turn orange, red and brown and die off the trees, I too, let go. I know I am not in control of nature, I am part of it. I find so much relief in this, in connecting to my mortality. And, as I join the leaves and fall to the dirt on the ground, I trust I will rest, disintegrate, compost, and reintegrate for rebirth in the spring. As we approach the autumn equinox and the changing of temperature as the world turns, what changes are stirring in your heart and body? I want to hear about them! I want to share this gloriousness of life and letting go with you! Please reach out and let me know how I can support you.
Blessings and Love,
Erin
